the corruption of capitalism and my dull sunday after
Mood:  lyrical
28 March 2005
I almost forgot about the date and time that passed me by.
Everyday, every hour, every minute and every second are gone in the same way.
Where have all the friends gone? Once in the blue mood, I have received their SMS. In those messages, they didn?t let me know much about their current life. On the contrary, they just want to tell me their still remember me. Hmm?

My life is almost quiet and stillness without any sound and color. The form of my life is getting close to the black and white world. Therefore, I changed the curtain in my room, I bought quite a lot of white shirts, I?m started collecting the black and white photos, I love to sit in front of the piano just to stare at that row of notes which made up by black and white keys.

Friends, here are some great question that I heard from my friends. So, let?s start pondering these big question:
? If you will die in 24-hour, what will you do?
? Is there an afterlife? If so, is it mandatory?
? Does beating up a masochist count as a good deed?
? Is there a God? If so, does he have any friends?
? Money is the root of evil? If so, how come the churches beg for it?

ANSWER


If I will die in 24 hour, I will go and have a dinner with my family; go and shop for them, buy whatever they need but lack; write letters for my loves one; pack up my stuff; give a big hug to my mother; say thanks to those who treat me well in these years.

I believe there is an afterlife. And, it is mandatory of course.

Nope, I don?t think. No person is natural born to be a masochist. Beating up a masochist is widening their mental problem. Don?t forget, it?s a kind of psychological disorder. Instead of giving them the pleasure and enjoyment of hardship, bring them to psychology consultant do count as good deed, in my point of view.

There is a God. He is living alone in heaven and annoyed by us, all the time.

Money is the root of evil. Yes, I do agree with this statement. Karl Marx do explained the corruption of capitalism, but money is still dominating the world, you and I. Sigh!!

Anyway, feel free to post your opinion (if you brain is still in function).
Good luck J

Haruki MurakamiEncountered a 100%’s girl
The question here is: she is not easy to adapt herself to live. No matter is her body, things that her pursuit, or things that required by someone else.
A fresh morning during April day, I brush past a 100% girl on a street in Harajuku. Not a beautiful girl, nothing special in her dressing, her hair still remain flat after sleep, may be is close to 30. 50 meters away, I already can make sure she is the 100% girl for me. From the first sight I saw her shadow till now, my heart beat uncommonly, and my lips are as dry as dessert.
In front of the flower shop, I brushed past her shoulder. A cluster of warm atmosphere passed my skin. The pitch road sprinkled by water, the rose aroma filled up the surrounding her. I’m not dare to talk to her. She was wearing a cardigan in white, in her left hand was holding a white envelope without stamp. The letter is written for whom? Her eyes look sleepy. May be she spent a whole night to write that letter. And, the letter probably has hidden all of her secret!
After a few steps, I turn my head back and see, her shadow was vanished in the crowd.

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Unhappy?
Mood:  don't ask
No one is happy all of the time, but some people feel as if they can never find happiness. Some people feel as if their entire life is devoted to nothing but pain and hurt and loneliness. Every day is a struggle, and every breath a fight for survival. These people have a deep understanding of the word Depression. Depressed??

MP3
Mood:  lazy
Topic: MuSic
Music is going with me now. 6 bucks for a pirate MP3, I’m enjoying the music with a guilty heart.
Now, is playing a Japan song maybe composed by Kiroro, sang by Rane Liu--- “hou lai”. I’m not sure. Every time when I hear this song, my mind will goes back. Childhood friends, playground, swing, classroom, blackboard, basketball field, etc. Those were the days. Where have all my friends go? Have their own a good life? Do they remember me?
The song is followed by a theme song from a Korea movie. On the platform, train is approaching the railway station. A girl walked beyond the yellow line. Finally, a boy appeared and pulled the young girl back from the dangerous situation.
The girl is born in a rich family. With a silver spoon in mouth, she didn’t feel happy at all. Soon, Cupid angel aimed them and let go his arrow. Girl and boy fall in love and have their sweet time after the encounter naturally.
Despite of the objection from parent, girl decided to run away with the boy. However, boy still young and can’t promise any future to her. He held her hands and said goodbye.
Last minute, before the train gone, the boy jumped down from the train and the girl got on the train at the same time. Still, they missed and leave each other.
Here is the ending of the story. In a railway station a platform, train is approaching in the station. Girl moves a step backward and stands behind the yellow line. People are busy for their life and pursuing the goal of life. Train is arriving.
Now turn into the theme song of ‘BEAUTIFUL LIFE’ from B’z. Would you like this song? I like it very much by the way. Not only attracted by Kimura, but the storyline. The life of the young lady is fragile but true. I hope to live a short but colorful life like her. You?
BYE!

Always do what you are afraid to do
Mood:  blue
Topic: tHINKING oF tIS qUOtATIOn
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Wallpaper!!
Mood:  a-ok
This wallpaper is originally created by ME!!
Pictures are downloaded from other?s website, Anyway?hope you like it!!

Okay, shut up and PAY!!
Mood:  silly
Well well well, father decided to change the Astro package. Last time is Dynasty, now plus Emperor Package as well. Total RM109.95
As a result, I?m zapping the channels like crazy!

Somehow, I realized that the behavior of consumption is REALLY unreasonable. Hello, I don?t needs 100 channels to entertain me? My father doesn?t even know there have how many channels in the package. He just orders the package for FUN (I think).
QUESTION IS: why we need to pay for those programmes, which we never watch throughout the month. Ridiculous.

Okay, shut up and PAY!! The behavior of money spending has re-produced the problem of globalization capitalism. Individual or collective consumption and consumerism behavior have corrupted our potential of critical thinking.

For example, when you are enjoying your cup of coffee in Starbuck, would you still remember the unbalance of social structure, the discrimination of races, the inequitable of gender? The answer is definitely. But, who care?

Well, the money that paid, the extra channels that I received might not bring me happiness, and knowledge will at least help me be miserable in comfort. *SOB *SOB

Do You Know??
Mood:  a-ok
DO YOU KNOW??
1. There are no clocks in Las Vegas gambling casinos.

2. Bruce Lee was so fast that they actually had to slow a film down so you could see his moves. That's the opposite of the norm.

3. Adolf Hitler's mother seriously considered having an abortion but was talked out of it by her doctor.

4. A mathematical wonder: 111,111,111 multiplied by 111,111,111 gives the result 12, 345, 678, 987, 654, 321.

5. The average person falls asleep in seven minutes.

6. The only domestic animal not mentioned in the Bible is the cat.

7. A cockroach can live for 10 days without a head.

8. When a person shakes their head from side to side, he is saying"yes" in Sri Lanka.

9. It's against the law in Iceland to have a dog.

Suicide??
Mood:  down
This is a list of famous people who are known to have committed suicide.

Alphabetical
A-G
Louis Althusser, (1990), French philosopher
Edwin Armstrong, (1954), US inventor of FM radio; jumped from a 13th floor window believing FM was a failure.
Walter Benjamin, (1940), German cultural theorist
Iris Chang, (2004), Chinese-American author
Leslie Cheung, (2003), Hong Kong movie star and singer
Christine Chubbuck, (1974), US newsreader, shot herself in the head on live TV after reading the news
Kurt Cobain, (1994), American musician and singer (Nirvana)
Empedocles, (432 BC), Greek philosopher, threw himself into Mt Etna
Peg Entwistle, (1932), US actress, the first person to jump from the letter 'H' of the Hollywood sign; step-mother of Brian Keith who also committed suicide
Andrea Feldman, (1972) Actor, Warhol superstar
John Gould Fletcher, (1950), Pulitzer Prize winning poet
Adam Lindsay Gordon, (1870), Australian poet ('Life is mostly froth and bubble')


H-N
James Harden-Hickey, (1898), US eccentric who wrote a book listing 88 poisons and 51 instruments that could be used for suicide; he chose an overdose of morphine
Ernest Hemingway, (1961), American novelist
Adolf Hitler, (1945), Nazi Germany's leader. Shot/poisoned himself in bunker.
Abbie Hoffman, (1989), US political activist and political demonstrator
Doug Hopkins, (1993), musician, founding member of rock group The Gin Blossoms. Killed himself with a .38 pistol December 5
Isocrates, (338 BC), Greek rhetorician
Jim Jones, (1978), reverend, leader of the "People's Temple" cult. Died during mass suicide that cost the lives of more than 500 in Guyana.
Dr. David Kelly, (2003), British scientist, source of BBC story about the September Dossier
Fletcher Knebel, (1993), US novelist ('Seven Days in May'), he said: Smoking is one of the leading causes of statistics)
Florence Lawrence, (1938), Hollywood's first movie Star
Hideto Matsumoto, (1998), Japanese rock musician
Denis Matthews, (1988), UK pianist
Vladimir Mayakovsky, (1930), Russian poet; his suicide note said 'I don't recommend it for others'
Charlotte Mew, (1928), English poet
Yukio Mishima, (1970), Japanese novelist; committed public ritual seppuku
Marilyn Monroe, (1962), American actress (some suspect foul play)
Oscar Nedbal, (1930), Czech composer ('The Tale of the Simply Johnny'); jumped out a window on Christmas Eve

O-Z
George Reeves, (1959), US actor, played Superman on television
Ruan Lingyu, (1935), Chinese actress
Alberto Santos-Dumont, (1932), aviation pioneer
Gen Ushijima, (1945), Japanese military commander who lost the Battle of Okinawa
Sid Vicious, (1979) bass player of the Sex Pistols, not long after allegedly killing his girlfriend
Rozz Williams, (1998), Musician, "Christian Death"